What a crazy year 2012 was.... so many ups and downs but I wouldnt change it for anything!!
The highlights? May 12th... I finally married the love of my life. After so long of planning, and stress it finally paid off. And i am not going to lie, it was pretty much the best wedding ever :) I have an amazing family that made it the best day of my life. I am so excited to have started this new adventure in my life. Also for Amber to have someone to call Daddy again. Matt has completed me in ways I could never have imagined. It"s amazing how you can not know you are missing something in your life until you find it. He has adapted to being a father so well and Amber loves him. The sweet words he said and the emotion he showed her during our wedding ceremony proved to me once again that he is the perfect peice to my little family. Along with matt I met so new amazing new friends, and I have accumulated a whole new family.
Things in North Dakota slowed down for Matt so we decided him moving home, even without a job, was the best thing to do. On March 12th, he flew home for the last time. Best birthday ever. A few weeks after he moved home he found a local driving job he loves. I love it too because it means we are together ever night.
In August I got a promotion at work to the Bakery Manager and most of the time I love it. Early hours, weekends off and I dont have to talk to customers!
Summer was great. Green River, Cherry Hill, fishing. Amber and I both cought our first fish ever this summer! Also this summer I announced that I was pregnant. Due December 20th. Nothing in the world made me happier. At one point in my life I didn't think I was going to have more kids although I always knew I wanted more. This baby girl we were having was an answer to my prayers. On Saturday October 19th, I noticed that I had not felt the baby move all day. We got home that night and no matter what I did, she wasn't moving. The next morning I went to Labor and Delivery at Utah Vally Hospital for a non stress test. Hoping they were just going to tell me I was being paranoid and everything was okay and to go home. Not what happened. The nurse hooked up the monitors and we found a good heartbeat. I am thinking that after an hour we are going to go home. Instead they put me on oxygen to try to get some movement. No luck. Put me on my side, no luck. So after an ultrasound the Dr decided that a urgent c-section was necessary. The next 15 minutes are a blur. Between trying to make phone calls, getting steroid shots, getting an epidural, and a catheter I hardly had time to realize what was going on. But I had Matt by my side the whole time. I know it wasnt easy for him either. We went into the hospital at 9 am, and by 1 pm she was born. Our baby girl Baylee Mae was 3lbs 8oz and 17 inches long. She went straight to the NICU and there she stayed for the next 5 weeks. No words can describe the emotions that the first week brought on. No matter how many times, or how many Dr's and nurses, told me that this was not my fault I couldnt help but feel like it was. There was no way not to. My body had failed at doing what should have been so natural. I was having a great pregnancy. There was no reason that I could understand for this to happen other than I failed and now there was this helpless little person that was suffering because of it. We couldn't do anything but watch and wait. Everyday Baylee amazed us more and more. She was only on c-pap for about 12 hours and most of that time is was room air.
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